Dialer
Senior Member
My drive home from work at night (10:30) is a quite peaceful drive of about 30 miles of State road. My thoughts often wander, and at times becomes susceptible to invasion apparently. My thoughts turn to my wife of 4 years, and they are not good thoughts. “Why do you do this, when She just does that?” “You deserve better... “ Remember when She did that?” “ She will never change,”... I’m being bombarded with such thoughts, which grow twofold within 20 minutes.
By the time I arrive home, I’m talked into writing these thoughts down, which I do, thinking they are somehow valuable. Leaving the letter on the desk in the office at home, My wife apparently read it, and I woke up she was gone, choosing to sleep in the other bedroom. We don’t speak for the first hour of the day, and she’s crying off and on. She then apologizes for being such a disappointment as a wife, and My dumb butt feels about a half inch tall. Why do I allow the enemy to do this to me? I know I need to keep prayed up everyday, but lose motivation to pray on an everyday basis...I lose sincerity and interest in praying, but know I HAVE to don the Shield of Faith....anyone else being devoured by the enemy? Or am I just in need of mental help?
By the time I arrive home, I’m talked into writing these thoughts down, which I do, thinking they are somehow valuable. Leaving the letter on the desk in the office at home, My wife apparently read it, and I woke up she was gone, choosing to sleep in the other bedroom. We don’t speak for the first hour of the day, and she’s crying off and on. She then apologizes for being such a disappointment as a wife, and My dumb butt feels about a half inch tall. Why do I allow the enemy to do this to me? I know I need to keep prayed up everyday, but lose motivation to pray on an everyday basis...I lose sincerity and interest in praying, but know I HAVE to don the Shield of Faith....anyone else being devoured by the enemy? Or am I just in need of mental help?