I opened my biblegate this morning contemplating your topic or the subject contradiction.
"Dear friends, I am not writing you a new command but an old one, which you have had since the beginning. This old command is the message you have heard. 8 Yet I am writing you a new command; its truth is seen in him and in you, because the darkness is passing and the true light is already shining.
9 Anyone who claims to be in the light but hates a brother or sister[b] is still in the darkness. 10 Anyone who loves their brother and sister[c] lives in the light, and there is nothing in them to make them stumble. 11 But anyone who hates a brother or sister is in the darkness and walks around in the darkness. They do not know where they are going, because the darkness has blinded them."
It would seem that love covers a multitude of sins, and hate might blind. So if one was to be healed of greatest blindness and so live with love the prize of life, and so the prize of existence, would be such love and so this very life itself in love and NOT so much the greener pastures of another life to come due to the worry that a man's appointed time is one hundred and twenty.
This seems to be an area with gray area... nevertheless my hope is that you will live your best life again today.
PS. So the prize of Christianity is not the reward of life after death which patiently salves many sins now, which makes sacrifice a noble man's work, but rather the prize is a life in love now. Therefore the argument that Christian beliefs are as a poultice for the anxiety of the grave is false.
It is a gray area that treads like yours, or my reply, might not be independent of treads not yours, not mine, not here or here and there--- even of totally different forums.