Well. Figured I would air things out here with some strangers. I have been through more hunting clubs than I want to admit. Some lasted years! Few lasted only one year. The Lord removed me from this last one on opening day. I failed pretty miserably. My job was to reflect Christ at the club. Facebook and a member that wanted me out got the best of me. I told the president to give my refunded dues and 3 stands to the man that got me kicked out. I didn't break a single rule but I failed at reflecting Christ. Pretty embarrassing and shameful thing. Somehow I knew the Lord would bless me later. I had put that land and deer hunting ahead of my relationship with Christ. So the Lord removed me from that club. I can honestly say that every time the Lord has removed a hunting property from my life. He always later gives me a better place to hunt. I am buying my own land now. The Lord is so good to me. I also spent more time with my family this last deer season. Not beingvgone every weekend was good. Before I was asked to leave the club I did a post on Facebook everyday about a bible study. I would read daily until something stuck with me. Then post it on FB. I did that daily for atleast 5 years straight. After this experience I left FB behind. I lack the maturity to handle FB. I am enjoying having my time back. But my bible time daily has struggled ever since. I felt accountable before to trade my bible. It really did feel like reading was my daily bread. I needed it! I must of been reading and posting for the wrong reasons or I wouldn't of stopped. COVID has waged wars in so many ways in my own life. Long distance relationships with families from mission trips have fizzled away slowly. Haven't seen my Father in a year. Church and worship is so different. Ministries can not have big gatherings. Mission trips are canceled. I am blessed and very thankful. I still serve at my church and do volunteer work. It just feels like a slow fade in the wrong direction. I don't want to find myself fumbling through life without a relationship with Christ. I don't want to live for the wrong things. Repentance is such a challenging thing sometimes. Even after years of loving the Lord my pride is still my biggest downfall. Yet He loves me anyways. Thank you Lord for your grace. I do not want to get what I deserve. Your grace is sufficient for me.