I once was a man of strong faith. That is no more. I have been dealing with my wife having ALS for the past couple of years. She is progressively getting worse.
This is a disease that I would not wish on my worst enemy. She is a woman of very strong faith and is handling her situation very well. She can no longer walk. Uses a rotator every where she goes. Has an electric scooter for long distances. She is an accomplished musician. Plays the floor harp, dulcimer, auto harp, piano and use to sing but the ALS has affected her voice. She is now losing strength in her hands, which is affecting her ability to play all of her instruments.
I am her primary caregiver and seeing her go through this has really affected my faith. I have gotten to the point where I curse God, don't want to even think of him.
Don't understand this. And, I know that the bible tells us that we will have trouble, not that we might, but that we will.
I am 75 years old and have my physical problems as well. I am to have my right shoulder replaced on Jan 14, and my left one about 6 months later. Injuries from
Vietnam. I know the story of Job in the bible and what a **** of a time that he had. But, I am not Job. And, at this point I feel that God does not care. I do not pray any more and don''t want to. I am in tremendous pain both day and night. Probably get 3 or 4 hours of sleep between night and day
I have 2 wonderful daughters, 2 great sons in law, and 6 wonderful grandchildren. If it were not for them, I would seriously think about ending my life.
But, that is the coward's way out and I would never hurt any of them that way. But, personally I don't give a **** about living.
Sorry for such a negative post, but that is the way that I feel right now. If any one cares to comment, please do so, but after such a negative post, I would probably just go on to the next post..........
This is a disease that I would not wish on my worst enemy. She is a woman of very strong faith and is handling her situation very well. She can no longer walk. Uses a rotator every where she goes. Has an electric scooter for long distances. She is an accomplished musician. Plays the floor harp, dulcimer, auto harp, piano and use to sing but the ALS has affected her voice. She is now losing strength in her hands, which is affecting her ability to play all of her instruments.
I am her primary caregiver and seeing her go through this has really affected my faith. I have gotten to the point where I curse God, don't want to even think of him.
Don't understand this. And, I know that the bible tells us that we will have trouble, not that we might, but that we will.
I am 75 years old and have my physical problems as well. I am to have my right shoulder replaced on Jan 14, and my left one about 6 months later. Injuries from
Vietnam. I know the story of Job in the bible and what a **** of a time that he had. But, I am not Job. And, at this point I feel that God does not care. I do not pray any more and don''t want to. I am in tremendous pain both day and night. Probably get 3 or 4 hours of sleep between night and day
I have 2 wonderful daughters, 2 great sons in law, and 6 wonderful grandchildren. If it were not for them, I would seriously think about ending my life.
But, that is the coward's way out and I would never hurt any of them that way. But, personally I don't give a **** about living.
Sorry for such a negative post, but that is the way that I feel right now. If any one cares to comment, please do so, but after such a negative post, I would probably just go on to the next post..........
